POST HSC update

Monday: Legal studies final exam. Should have studied more but too excited. Really wish I had spent my night of freedom doing better things, oh well at least THAT'S confirmed now.
Tuesday: Work :( not a fun way to start but MONEY! And I ran with bernii hehe
Wednesday: my first 9hr shift, not as bad as I thought it would be, kaching!
Thursday: Interview with yat at curzon hall, wow the art of setting a table (Y) quite fun though! Hope we get the job hehe so far we got offered a trial ^^
Friday: YAY got to see people I missed very much! Mizuya is nice, but slight rip haha. Hmmm I really like the taiwanese place in chinatown though, so good. Bernii you have to go! Old dumpling house where we went for Rachel's :)
Saturday: Working again, I was 20mins late haha but my boss is a frigin ditz and didn't even know I was late =D and offered me to stay back for another 2hrs yay MORE MONEY!
Sunday: Spoke to mother dearest for the first time in about 2 weeks, wow. I have no idea what shes thinking, I wish I did. Bro and gf attempted to make macaroons and failed haha but still tastes good. Cleaning is soooo draining, I'm pumped at first but then its like ergh this is taking forever TT and I don't know what I can and can't chuck out cause its not mine. Hehe cleaning the whole house before I clean my own room eeeeek!

5 weird caca facts:
1. I really don't like it when people litter, is it that hard to put it in the bin?! Add recycling to that too. I took out all the staples in my papers before I recycled them haha ><
2. I hate having clogged email! I will never let my email get full. Practically check it everyday and never let it go over 2 pages >=]
3. I drink tea everyday, mainly english tea cause thats what my dad makes but usually green tea in the morning
4. I actually hate exercise haha and don't consider myself fit at all. In cross country and shit I guess I can just push myself? *nod FAT ha
5. I LOVE runny yolk in eggs YUM. My mum absolutely hates it but I love it when the yolk oozes out onto my toast =D

Hope you're all well! And hopefully see you soon ;)
love misserica!

WOOP :(, WOOP

woooohooooo one exam left, it feels like my HSC is already over, I dunno what to do with myself haha study eeeek. But maybe I'll start preparing my family essay for legal ergh TT

Maths - ergh I suppose it could have been worse but I wasted so much time on questions where I had made stupid little mistakes which kept me wondering why I wasn't getting it right. Lucky I made a few last attempts in the final minutes and got them (Y)
Indo - rawr eff you last question ! I want to do the exam again! But I can't :( so what's done is done. PLEASEPLEASE let me get band 5.

Dear mother, why are you so incapable of communicaition? guigiuhcjuibhajkby freak just whatever! Ok. I hope I can leave on good terms.

Woolies people are bitches! Thanks to them I probably have no shifts for the next 2 weeks >_>. I need money fast!! Interview next thursday yay. Why is the weather so horrible?~ I want to runnnnnnnnnnn.
toodles
A double exam sucked, but it doesn't suck as much as finishing on the 5th hahaha jokes guyes goodluck!

must hang in !

feeling: so over study !

After wednesday I will be soooo happy ! One exam left wooo. But right now all I can think about is how shit I'm going to feel tomorrow when I attempt 3unit questions and indo listening, screwed! Dunno how I feel about 2unit,I feel strange, unprepared but not stressed.
Random trail of thoughts:
- Better be able to go HK! NO, I AM GOING! And its going to be awesome.
- maintaining my 6am wake up even after HSC to exercise with berno at ewood oval hehe
- working as a checkout chick in the day and a waitress at night woo MONEYMONEYMONEY!
- cleaning my entire house! Hopefully a bonus of happy parents.
- eating at my fav viet restaurant with fam to celebrate end of HSC yesh
- drained frigin drained
- please do not let indo and maths eff up my atar :(

goooooodnites

moody bitch, maaf

I think I'm feeling the HSC stress, but my parents piss me off so easily these days. The last thing I want to talk about when I come home from a day of studying, is HSC and "do you understand everything?" "are you prepared?" "Shouldn't you be studying business instead of maths?" ETC! Freak stfu before I snap! But luckily for them I have been taken a deep breath everytime they say something and then just not responding or a quiet "hmm".

Yes I realised a couple of days ago after studying maths so crazily that shit biz and eng is first! wtf are you doing erica?!

I don't remember what its like not to be tired. I studied in the park today, its so relaxing :) except then it turned really windy and horrible :(. Where is Summer dammit?! I want to study under the glorious sun! About to head off to macq uni, freezing my ass off and studying outside :) but the cold keeps you awake! Hopefully fit in time for a run too!

Life is so depressing right now, but it'll all be over soon. Weirdest moods lately. hope everyone is well!

Not yet completely insane

Dear blog!

Friday
My final discovery (maths tutor) lesson ever! thank goodness. One last motivational speech from tutor which and then a lecture later on in the night about going library. He always comes into the room at the worst of times! I'm usually laughing or talking when he checks up on me >_>. I guess half of what he says is true, you do talk or even if you're by yourself, you just lose motivation and waste so much time just getting there. HOWEVER I also don't think I can study at home :( so wtf do i do?! Maybe I'll try study at home tomorrow TT I just have to avoid the TV! and the computer!

Saturday
So after that big motivational speech, I actually felt really shit and was lyk shit HSC Erica! So I made up a study plan on Friday night. I managed to complete 3/4 of what I had planned to do. Satisfied? hm not quite. But I did succeed in getting to the library at 9 =D and not sitting on the fourth level as that is where all you rsc kids seem to gather.

Random thoughts:
- I went to Saigon bowl in stra for the first time, really nice pho and the more expensive dishes look soooo nice as well! Def dragging my mum there! And guys we have to eat there sometime too
- For those who know me well and know who I was hating on haha well I told them and yes its resolved now? ish. At least its all out of my system now =) And yeh I think I'm done hating on them.
- why do I always have the worst timing...sigh

Miss everyone =( hopefully bump into some of you at mac! But only for a quick hello :)
Let's study!
<3 Erica

douchebag

Friday
Returned to school, how depressing. It's so weird how one event can make so much difference. I felt so weird and everyone was looking at me like "what are you doing here?" It was so depressing guys! But yeah had to sort out some bonus points stuff.

Saturday
Party. Sorry to miss W-day girls! I hope you know I still love you dearly :) and there will be plenty more W-days to come, including one hosted by me :D.
Unfortunately I did not achieve what I wanted to at that party. All I realised was wow hating you is so easy. On the up side made some news friends and caught up with some old friends. Despite the bads, I'm glad I went, therefore majority was good.

Sunday
Eating at carlo court. Vietnamese place in food court is pretty daym good :).

Monday
Sigh the sleepover kind of killed my sleeping pattern, but I forced myself to get up at 10 even though I could have slept way longer. Studied at macq uni and it was crazy packed and so many rsc-ers there and just HSC students. Better not be packed on wednesday. Also found out I was supposed to have maths tutor today, since when was I unorganised? ha. So yes maths tutor all this week, GREAT!

When we reach next week, time to frigin stress, but for now, persevere guys!
happy studies~
<3 erica

PS. really liking "just the way you are" bu bruno mars (Y)

Selamat malam!

1 DAY UNTIL indonesian HSC speaking
1 WEEK FROM TODAY I graduate ='(

OMFG, its starting to hit me how much I love school, I am really going to miss it and all the people in it =[ including some teachers! Mr Kula, that awesome man. Not my teacher anymore but I still love him :), apparently the class is getting him a watch or something. He taught me for 5 years and told me to do 3unit TT hehe

I got punked today, one of the most embarassing moments of my life haha but I'll just laugh at what a dork I am ><, and yes my Mum was like "yes, you are a dork" lols. Thanks for making me feel on top of the world for all of about 5mins guys haha even I'm shocked at how emotional I was. However I am not suprised that I believed you, gullible indeed I am, especially if I actually want it to be true =)

Dress up 2moro!~ YAY! Better be some year spirit shown by majority of the grade cause we're just such an enthusiastic year! ha. Next week you all have to come to school everyday >=] except tuesday!~
I am bringing my cam 2moro :) photos shall be posted later.

ERICAAAAR

Blog relief

Long time no blog!

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear, We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear, We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?

LOL a while back at angus' house, for legal assignment. We were a divorced couple.



Update:
- Mother ignored me for 3 days (I'm guessing because I didn't say hi when I got back from the city on friday night) and spoke to me when she found out I got a good mark in maths, strange woman indeed.

- made Dad home made chocolates c: Happy Bday papa!

- New found love in John Mayer but still second to Michael Buble who "due to popular demand" had a third concert announced =D

- Still have not cured my yumcha cravings dammit. Last assessment on friday woo (was supposed to be due on wednesday, and now I'm blogging TT because my brain thinks it has more time)

- I miss badminton :(

ODD facts:
1. I love reading junkmail, I'm so happy when it arrives
2. I watch Q&A and enjoy educating myself about politics - ha influence of the mother
3. I used to make cards and I have a massive box full of card stuff

Oh yeh, my neighbours friend visited a while ago and I kinda stalked their car =). I'm not a car person but I wouldn't mind a rich man buying me this =D


The boot is so cute, its like two doors that open like a cupboard :) hehe.

RSA! woo. Saturday equals haircut (I hope) and USYD and UTS open day-ing with mother dearest and hopefully bump into others :). Sunday equals RSG which equals job in an RSL after HSC yesh!

Nites bebs

so daym windy

currently: sitting in bed, blogging on laptop, avoiding legal x)

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

1. Failed my 6am wake up farout. Well I did wake up, but my bed is so nice and warm that I can't leave it :). Try again 2moro
2. Because of my failed wake up I have not finished legal >< CRAP
3. RAWR I have to clean all the bird poo off my car -__-
4. SORRY jadespade, hope you have a wonderful 18th ^^ I shall give you a big hug at school x)
5. Some people just don't click
6. coffee addiction
7. officially less than one week until school, but then still 2 weeks until trials, terrible that this is how my brain works

laters

life sucks, but it can only get better

1. wow have not blogged in so long
2. no msn, no tv, felt really depressed on saturday just thinking about how much time I've wasted so that is it! Time to frigin study like a mad woman.
3. @ angus, served ibu barret at woolies, weirdo lols, LEGAL!
4. Why did the stupid english department have to give an assignment in the holidays TT and why must it have 3 parts. Hopefully its easy, seems kinda fun and only 300 words each part (Y)
5. I want money, so much money. I can't wait until I have a really good job and can go shopping everyday :) but in order to get that job i need a good atar crap!
6. I have no idea what I want to be or am going to do for course choices
7. birds pooed all over my car, do not park near epping station :( haha
8. when this is all over, our new life begins, and i like the look of it =D
9. got yet another party dress, originally $60 but i got it for $20, bargain
10. Madam flavour green, jasmine and pear tea - my new love, try it guys (Y)

busy monday

1. Open high today =D was actually the best lesson haha because everyone fully socialised cause I was the only rsc-er and this other chick's friend didn't come so we were all forced to chat. Cake was good, teacher always makes us cake hehe and gives us chocolate =)

2. Went ryde aquatic gym tonight, was soooooo good, sweated ALOT and now I'm motivated. But crap so unfit haha have not exercised for like a week and my legs full stiffened up at the end. It's sucha good deal $60 p/month and you can use the pool,tennis courts, gym, sauna, spa and theres a bar hehe its like a lil community. The people there are hotter than the people at carlo though, bit intimidating haha. (Eunice which gym does your mum go to?)

3. When you see a hot person at work, it just makes your day so much better. Would you agree employed persons? haha

4. I forgot the speed limit for red P-plater's on the weekend and I thought I was allowed to go 100km/h TT but its only 90km/h BUT matt said the camera can't tell you're a P-plater so its ok wooohooo was so worried.

5. Realised I have been spelling "awesome" as "awsome" for I duno how long, truly embarassed, truly an idiot haha

6.Little yr7 girls on trains are like extra frigin annoying, especially the ones from syd girls and cheltnam. I hope I was not like that.

love always, misserica

bleeeh

1. Congrats to all the textile students, the show was awsome :). But wayyyy too much band playing haha. Man Miss Shorter is an emotional stressed wreck haha SCARY

2. Had a productive session at discovery with just me the tutor and becky

3. Mummy's home! She'd been in hospital all week LOL but dw she's fine!

4. Newly discovered clothing site =D tis good, "UK's largest independent online fashion and beauty retailer"
www.asos.com

5. I wish someone would just give me money

6. I hate you ears! Why must you be so small. I regret spending that $40 on those headphones which now refuse to stay in my ears TT. Try a larger size, see if that does anything, if I can manage to shove it in =)

7. I'm so into politics, influence of my mother I think.

This was a boring blog, sorry
bye all

I should really clean my room

currently: failing james ruse series and sequences paper =) HA
wants to: be chilled after end of assessments BUT NO I still have so much shit to do >=[

1. wtf, I don't get a certificate for my 100% customer service, BS! lol wooworths you truly suck! where is your employee motivation? I just want it for my resume

2. Will now only be working on friday and sunday mornings ==' oh god, I hope I can wake up. (effective in 2 weeks)

3. Woke at 11.30 on saturday, total waste of a day. W;t was so not worth it and I had to chuck my gelato >=[. We were late and the doorman was being a bitch for it lols.

4. Paul is an idiot, and knows nothing about public transport :). You know how i stayed on the train "to go to stra" well we jus ended up going in a loop and got off at central when it returned, hence why I arrived at ewood no earlier than the rest of you >_>

5. I watched 10mins of soccer and got bored =D haha although I did see australia score their goal! tota suprise, usually wait frigin 40mins for anything good to happen TT, i refuse to join the bandwagon!

6. hmmmm new obsession with the community channel, she makes such valid points.

7. NTS: think before you eat! I am so frigin full right now zomg my mum is holly-crapping at how much I eat haha. Not eating is a much easier way to lose weight but its unhealthy and I think I would fail miserably. Right now it goes in, I work it off and I stay the same. Not exactly the plan, time to eat less! eff you m&m's

8. 2 more weeks of school guys hehe. Yes I know trials, but Whatever school sucks!

9. People who speak with those bluetooth earpieces look really stupid =). I wish I could sing in my car, but then I'll look stupid too.

10. bra shopping is really fun am I right? LOL well for me it is :)

back to my bloody discovery TT
tata darlings

customer service = erica =)

1. I got 100% for customer service from the secret customer woowoowoo! haha I must have been in a frigin good mood that day, I'm usually sucha stoner at work lol.
2. youtubing in english hehe (Y)
3. WATCH! the other asian guy i was talking about lols
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1298443903991&ref=mf
4. W;t 2moro YAY
5. CRAP I'm working far too much :( and now I have to give exactly 2 weeks notice
6. It's frigin cold, time for exercise

bye darlings

a little less stress in my life

currently: doing stupid indo!
Ni hao

1. I secured michael buble tickets wooowooo haha not many people my age like him I don't think or know who he is, but whatever I love him :)
2. dammit missed hamish and andy on tv :( wanted to checkout all the funny shiet they did
3. finished exams woooooo but still have so much to do. Catch-up on indo tutor hwk, then make biz and legal notes YAY
4. I am continuing with 3unit
5. I have not powerwalked for 3 days >=[ MUST walk on friday for like 2hrs
6. leaning towards an apartment for my 18th as opposed to a hotel so I can cook =D. If I make shiet will you guys eat it? haha do you trust my cooking :)
7. library = productive when alone and ears blasting with music, dammit my ears are so small, stupid headphones keep falling out :( and its the smallet one haha
8. Having your P's is awsome :) hurry up Bevly, Sugna

selamat malam

Lazy sunday

currently: avoiding biz assessment (final one! c:)

1. woke at 1pm today HA holy what a waste of a day. Screw you insomnia!
2. Have suddenly become so pumped for post-HSC life, but I really need to stop thinking about that so I can focus on the present, the reality that my HSC is in 4months and at this rate I'm screwed =D
3. Anyone leaving the country before the 10th? hope not
4. Sourdough bread is the best! I have a thing for bread :) especially seed bread.
5. Must secure M.Buble tickets
6. Cannot wait to go HK, MUST savesavesave from now on. Do not let me buy food!
7. My dad is now an insane powerwalker, I actually have to try to stay ahead haha. He lost 10kgs and had to buy new jeans, no fair.
8. GET INTO HSC MODE NOW!

That is all :)

To drop or not to drop!?

Hello lovely people,
Spoke to Ms Saktivel about 3 unit today...
erica: miss i think I'm gonna drop 3 unit ..
Miss: (smiles and shakes head) NO
erica: what?! look at my marks, what is the point!!!!!
Miss: I won't allow it
LOL so guess that plans gone, dammit I was sooo happy to drop ><><>

I have recently realised what a stupid girl I can be and how much I have been just ignoring the HSC ha. Time to go back to that time where I was in full HSC mode :). If I get 90, I'll be the happiest person alive. I don't know how I could happily go on holidays with a shiet mark ><.

I want you to talk to me, but I don't want to talk to you haha =) because you're a douche, still a boy not yet a woman, but getting there!

Athletics 2moro, sorry guys my eyes becoming more fucked up, need to go doctors. My eye better not become like Sam Lee's haha I remember that :).

Chao darlings, have fun 2moro!
Shiet biz seems hard, who's started? I'm actually worried now.

realese me

currently: indo-ing and sipping tea
wants to: finish biz already and drop 3unit hm

Yes I am really considering dropping 3unit,it takes up so much time and effort, time and effort which could be better spent on indo and legal. But that means i wasted so much money on tutoring ergh.

It's over woo. Honesty really is beautiful, should have just done that from the start fark. But s'all good. For those who know what I'm crapping on about, yes its sorted and over haha now I can stop stressing woo and focus on school.

Long weekend coming up woo. Study? or go out :)?

bye darlings, sorry to bother you with my mess

procrastination

currently: waiting for eng tutor to read my UNFINISHED feature article

Daym I was so excited, thought i wouldn't be staying up all night to do it, but even after a day at home, I still didn't finish it :(. I was actually sick btw! lol woke at 12, holy! good sleep :)

I've realised my mind changes so quickly its not funny. I'm so easily influenced. And hence I am so afraid of commitment. I am the most paranoid person alive and hence I have insomnia. Perhaps i will be forced to take a leap of faith, I certainly hope not, cause I'll prov screw it up. I love certainty :) boring? maybe but I much rather that than getting hurt, or my usual concern, hurting someone else.

I do not understand you! I'm already sick of trying to understand you. Quit whilst we're ahead? maybe.

beauty in the breakdown

currently: blogging (obviously) before i continue with my legal research
wants to: be good at studying and writing almost perfect essays in the first attempt

Baby let me love you downnn
There’s so many ways to love ya
Baby I can break you down
There’s so many ways to love ya
Got me like, oh my gosh I’m soo in love
I found you finallyy, you make me want to say
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
Ohh myy gosh

This week has been strange.
Monday
Indo exam. Listening did not go well, it never does and I cannot see how I am going to get better. Watching indo news on sbs as my teacher suggested seriously does not help hmpf. And for speaking i had so many great ideas but i just get so nervous and my brain gets fried TT. Rank is def going to drop, but no I must be positive! and know that I can get it back.
I received an email from my teacher reminded me how course work counts ergh and I'm behind 2 weeks haha and interviews are coming up! crap.

Tuesday
Business exam. Then to maccau with fi,yat and viv. I walked in on some old chinky lady peeing...learn to shut the door! And then I did discovery homework for the rest of the arvo and still failed to complete it. I didn't understand a question and I started getting really down.

Wednesday
Tutoring, luckily my tutor didn't rage at me or I would feel like even more of a failure, I think he realises I'm fragile haha. So I now have 6 booklets to complete plus the rest by wednesday, GREAT! But my tutor just lectured us about positive attitude does help etc, he always gives us motivational speeches lols, his kid is def gonna be one smart cookie

Thursday
Got business results. Ergh don't ask. I am now very embarassed but oh well. When I got home, I didn't want to tell my Mum because I just find it really hard to talk to her about these things. But she was very understanding, and got a bit upset herself haha I think cause I didn't tell her. Big chat about the HSC, I feel better now. She wants to help me, but she can't, its upto me. But she bought me a solar moving toy thing, a prettier one than nooris xD ha to cheer me up.

Friday
Mr Hanna wanted to have a chat with me, ergh reenforcing the embarassment factor, but it was good. I did legal research in my frees :) got alot done, plan to sit alone during frees now ha sorry guys! Work was the usual, oh but i tried a KFC corneto crusher, yumyum.

Saturday
That jess watson girl is returning, you know, the sailing girl. Lol my parents have nothing better to do so they went to go watch. Now for me to get on with this legal essay. I must finish it by Sunday!

Toodles

listening to: I'm not ok - The Dream
Currently: tea and indo = bad combination, minus the tea

Unfortunately I think this will be my final blog for a while :(. Hopefully I'll keep it up though, since i plan to get off fb and no msn except on saturday nights for a couple hrs HA. I did it for a week last term, felt good so here goes attempt number 2.

I got paid $30 p/h for easter hoidays hehe got payslip today. 2 people told me I was an awsome packer, for those non woolies people you're prob like wtf, who cares but when your frigin packing all day, that really motivates you >=]. OHHH I found out btw (A block asians) lol that woolies calls the green fruit papaya and the yellow one pawpaw so there you go sugna.

I keep putting my indo off fuck, and all my other work. I'm like leaving everything til the last minute, gotta get rid of this attitude. Always thinking its ok, I still have time, just get it done erica! So last day of holis shall consist of powerwalking and breaky at a cafe yay then shopping for noori's bday present then STUDY! indeed.

Tonights ep of underbelly sucked :(, but next one looks good. I can't wait until after hsc, so much drama and shows to catch up on hehehe. And reading! I am yet to read breaking dawn, lol got to the last book and was lyk cbf, next thing I knew I was in yr12.

Anyway, hope everyones pumped for school! ha not. But I get to see you all :)
Until next time, which will hopefully be sooner than later, stay happy!

I’ve seen what you’re facing, please don’t be alarmed
If you need me, just call me
You’re never alone
I’m barely sleeping, im barely eating
Until the rain turns into change
My heart’s your heart, my love is your love
And im not ok, unless you’re ok
And my mind is your mind, and my soul is your soul
And I’m not ok unless you’re ok

release me

Currently: mathing, reading berni's blog

listening to: "Officially missing you" by Janice and Sonya <-- listen to it if you haven't already :). Poor Tamia, compared to them, you suck :) ha.


So I kind of got sick of blogging, which i knew would happen but today I am in a blogging mood hm. Don't care if no one reads this, I shall chat to myself :).



Holiday recap:

Hols have been good but gone way too fast. Can't believe only 4 days left crap and I still have so much to do TT. I just been shopping, eating out and working. WOO made $300 on easter monday hehe hopefully that'll cover my expenses for this hols. Bernii take me with you to the markets one day x) seems cool. I started running again yay, 4km yesterday but 0 today :( I need a running buddy to motivate me, bernii I'm looking at you, in a years time :) haha. Been going mac uni library (Y). I love going late at night when its so dead, but soon it will be invaded with school kids =='. Might start going every monday this term.



I got tutoring all this week TT how lame. Going library tonight and saturday. If you're cool and wanna work hard, find me but only if you wanna work :)

OHOH i tried chatime! hehe i love it! I am now a dedicated chatime fan =). Hey bernii, did you know we get 10% off because we work at macq? hehe. Just tell them where you work. They didn't even ask me for proof like wtf, not that I have any besides staff parking card, which is a total rip off btw! $20 just for the card then i gotta pay $4 eveytime I park, but they failed to mention that before i handed over the $20, stingy bastards.

Hope you're all enjoying your holis while they last. See you all soon.

I don't care. I don't care. I don't care, fuck you.

You're stupid. Just because I say I don't care, doesn't mean I don't. I'm a woman, its obvious. Women rarely actually "don't care" when they say they don't. All men have to do is figure out when we do and don't mean it. A simple task you would think, but clearly not. Idiot. Right now I want to punch your face in. Boxing is really good exercise but it'd get really boring unless you had something to motivate you. If I imagined your face right now, I think i could go for at least a good solid hour.

yaaaaaay happiest day of my life? perhaps this year haha

I got my P's guys, for those not on facebook hehehe I was so insanely nervous but then became so insanely happy hehe, now i can get some well needed sleep!

AFTER i complete my draft for english :)

Thanks for your supprt guys haha i think you helped calm me with your well wishes x)

nervous

HEY GUYS! long time no blog.

I've been extremely busy lately with assessments and the cbf to blog attitude also :) ha. Eunice, get blogging.....NOW! Still got maths, eng, maths, legal to go. I really don't think I did well for business, rank is gone :(. Mr Ramsay thinks so highly of me ahha weird, he was like "thats so unlike you Erica to not study enough" I'm like ergh are you sure you have the right erica? ha.

Today i went macq uni. Was productive at the start but then i got stuck on a maths question TT and couldnt go on until noori came. I hate it cause i dunno how much space to leave. Not as bad as elle tho, if she gets stuck on one question, she doesn't go on hahahaha nice! So later Lisa and Paulo came, we managed to get a room later. Cecilia, ray, camie and viv also came. Cecilia is really pretty now haha not that she wasn't b4 ;) but yes hair makes such a difference. I think everyone gets hotter when they graduate, heres hoping. How far is everyone with english? I'm hoping i can do a 3hr sitting and get it pretty much done with editing later etc.

I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Insomnia definately kicked in last night, i spent the night thinking about cross sections and various road rules haha. If you guys read this blog tonight then oh shiet. Please do not tell people about my driving test haha because it'll make me really nervous. I'm nervous enough! ha but yeh its 2moro, and my parking keeps screwing up >_>

Anyways I better frigin write my thesis, read my road rules and get to bed :) nites all

Ps. This made me LOL at the time, dw if you don't find it funny, its for my own personal enjoyment haha
erica: wait, why are we arguing?! haha always happens. Dw I like our stupid arguements :)
paul: lol..its not really arguing. And mostly because you're stupid.
erica: lol "and mostly because you're stupid" >_> nice, thanks paul

lol indeed i told you not to read it and indeed eunice you're brother is a bitch

high school dropout

1. I have no idea how anyone studies for an entire day. I think I should break up my study, instead of one full day of play and one full day of study, half play half study per day. But that rarely happens, outtings take entire days.

2. Check out my obese foot guys haha

Yeh for some weird reason i felt the need to take 4 phots of my FAT foot. Just so you can realise how fatty it is ha. But yeh didn't end up going doctors, still considering it but i think its fine. Coach full insisted i go get it checked out but im frigin walking lols, unfortunately.

3. My failed plat. Eunice says unlayered hair is nicer, do you agree? I was planning to grow it really long then get crazy layers hehe but now she has made me rethink this theory :(. I miss being able to plat my hair. Might trim the fringe to make it grow faster, so close to being put behind my ear~chyeah

4. I should be studying indo. Learning vocab is possible the most boring thing alive.

5. Farewell :)

owe

Friday
I tried to argue with Mr Hana about business exam, cause we only got 1 week offical notice
=( and its not like i keep track of what week it is gosh. But he's like no you knew it was in week 6 or watevs week it is. I forgot to ask the other class if they knew, dammit. But I'll just try my best, thats all i can do, I just wanna beat joel haha and show him once again, CRAMMING WORKS!~ :)
After school my dad picked me up and i drove home. Had my 2 shots of coffee before work (I'm becoming addicted to coffee, not cool). I haven't slept before 12 for the past week, totally not helping my insomnia. Work was actually really fun for once :) maybe its because i wanted to get my mind off things and the coffee hyped me up. I love 3hr shifts, go by so fast :). It was my parents aniversary on friday too so they went out to dinner, without me :( haha. Studied a bit then phoned with nooripoori.

Saturday
Tried to wake up early to study english and failed as usual. Went to the RTA to practice my park and stopping at the line~ test soon =0 pleaseplease let me pass! I'm telling you now guys, my car only stops at eastwood x) ha. English tutor was okish but i was so tired and not really paying attention hehe. Driving yet again, man I have to learn to drive like a grandma, 25km is so slow TT haha.

Badminton was awsome as usual, always funtimes at baddy. BUT i rolled my ankle guys, farout ha. We were doing laps up and down the courts and somehow when i turned i lost my balance and rolled, but luckily i was smart and fell with it. Bernii was like "haha are you alright" then i burst out crying LOL and she was like "shiet, TAM!". I think it was just the initial shock, I was scared I'd broken it cause i dunno what it feels like when u break a bone. But luckily there was a doctor there and he said it looks not too bad. So i had to hop all the way out to the car, biggest workout for my left leg haha. Thankyou bernii and fiona you guys are such good friends =). So I full got to make my mum get things for me haha then I was like lets try walking, and guess what?! after my 2hrs of not walking it was fine haha. But iuno, its starting to swell so gonna go doctor 2moro.

Yeh I'll update the state of the ankle 2moro but i think its fine. My mood is all over the place these days angry, sad, bored, careless, happy ALL at once. So lets turn that negative energy into positive by using it to study =) ha indo monday then biz tuesday, screwed!

broombroom

Music to my ears

So vivian gave me her usb with a bunch of music on it and wow she may have found some chinese music that i actually like haha sorry to chinese music but i generally am not a fan. But yeh I love "In Your Eyes" from Hi My Sweetheart. Atm I'm addicted to this korean song "Living in the heart" - Untouchable ft Narsha and "Livin' a Lie" - The Dream ft Rihanna. Yeh I like all kinds of music but paricularly K-pop, rnb and michael buble haha very random taste =D. Basically anything that sounds good.



Sekolah

I still hate school :) the only good part of school is to see you guys! Otherwise it sucks. Got 2unit maths assessment TT so much shit I havent done in ages like Trapezoidial rule wtf haha, scew you 4units that don't have to do it :(. I actually managed to do some slight work in english today. I think Penrose may actually be an ok teacher its just our class never wants to work haha 2 yrs of 0 work in english, you kinda get used to it =D. But yes totally 100% screwed for the assessment, I really hope Jefferys was just tryna scare people and we do actually have the question :( otherwise MAJORLY screwed.

• 15 March - Indo exam (reading and writing)


• 22 March - 2unit maths exam


• 31 March - legal exam (Law and Society)

awaiting notification for: 3unit maths, english, business

I know they're coming, but I'd just like to put it off forever :). Those people that do their assessments the night before and get top marks >_> ! haha but I've done that before. Cramming DOES work, its just the harder way.

BROOMBROOM

Just had a driving lesson. I sucked haha, we tried to pretend it was the real test and yes i really gotta check up on my road rules. Instructor said 3-point-turn, hill start and parking is fine but i go too fast hehe needa slow down at intersections and be more aware. I never look ahead fk I'm really scared I'm gonna miss the school zone. But yes 2 weeks to perfect it =D. If I don't get it, Ima cry and if I do I'll jump for joy and like bow down to the instructor haha.

The next life

So the whole no msn thing is going good =]. I'm seriously over msn, sucha watse of time when you really think about it. Very rarely do you have convos that are actually important. I'm so scared for indo exam so I shall go complete all my homework which is alot TT and then study for indo =D

argh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Q AND LIL MAN! Hoping you both have a wonderful day. I love you both so much, thanks for always being here for me :) especially when i need you most.

1. I really don't like it when people use facebook and other social networking sites to try and seem popular or mad or some shit like that :) haha like when they comment "thanks for that mad night etcetc" knowing that everyone can see it. I'm pretty sure you would have already thanked them on msn or in person, no need to show the whole world. Anyone with me? Although it does depend on the context I guess, and perhaps I am guilty of doing it myself, but i can't remember.
2. I really hate arguing with my parents. I think me and my mother are just soooo similar, too similar that we clash. She be's a smartass, I be a smartass back and vice versa :). I've decided the best way for me to keep out of trouble is to just keep my mouth shut, so that i shall do.
3. I think that I could eat myself to death, if i really wanted to haha. I keep eating because I'm bored or I want to avoid study, not good. I'm pretty sure at least 50% of the time when I eat, I'm not actually hungry.
4. I'm really worried about gaining HSC fat. Hopefully I can find time to run or go on the exercise bike. I found out this chick lost 11kgs during HSC, wtf man. Supposed to gain that haha. Inspirational eh, but I'm pretty sure she didn't eat, not cool man. I want to be fit thin, not thin with 0 muscle.
5. I'm so scared about the end of the road, the HSC. The only reason I really care is because of the humiliation if I do shit, which is not really a good reason. I keep saying I'll do this and this but it never happens. I duno what's wrong with me, I'm just so not a study person. But i think the library is def not for me, at least not with Matt haha biggest distraction alive.
6. People are using some really random slang these days but I think I'm pretty up to date. My friend was talking to this guy who she kinda likes. Anyway he said "gw" to her and she didn't know what it meant. So she looked it up on google and it said it meant "get wet". Lmao so she asked him "uhh did you just tell me to get wet?" to which he totally cracked up. If you guys dunno what it means, use that brain :)
7. I'm so fucking stressed and I seriously am not enjoying anything right now. School sucks and the assessment period is coming up which is just going to depress me more. Can't wait til holidays guys <3>

I think ima not go on msn anymore. Only on friday nights if im not out or working. So this blog shall be where i let everything out. Don't care if you read it or not :) it shall remain to be my stress reliever.

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Ok guys lets recap. Sorry if i already told you some of this in person =D

Sunday 28 Feb - fiviv 17th birthday

Fiona's and Vivians combined party. 3hrs of K = awsome =D. Then headed off to wagaya? Yeh some jap restaurant with touch screen menu oooo, BUT the portions are very small though it is nice. And shinface knew the waitress and she gave us a free cocktail hmm was good stuff but farout its like $10 usually haha. Oh yeh we played the wasabi sashimi game. I didn't get the wasabi filled one, but i ate salmon for the first time in my life! And it was horrible haha iuno maybe it was the tiny bit of wasabi, I did not enjoy the texture. And yeh i suffered more than the guy that got the wasabi haha dw guys i swear i wasn't gonna barf even though people were getting prepped for me to lols.

We then headed off to norita (korean games cafe) which was good fun as usual. Now to the embarassing bit for those who haven't already been told. The "hot/cool" waiter, well hes more cute haha but yeh ...i went toilet and came out and he came over to me:

hotwaiter: hey...

erica: ohh yes :)

hotwaiter: "points down

erica: huh..

hotwaiter: umm "points at foot

everyone: hahahhaa

(toilet paper stuck to erica's shoe)

erica: "fails at getting it off herself

hotwaiter: wait, stand still (gets the paper off)

(other people in the cafe from other tables look to see whats happening)

erica: thanks..."walks over to chair, sinks into lounge blushes like no tomorrow and covers her face

After we realised we had 7mins to get from townhall to central so i sprinted thru city in my heels wee (painful) and then we missed the train by 20seconds gosh. Luckily another came and yes drover Frank home, all up a good night.

Monday 1 March - Swimming carnival, Mitchell returns

I froze my ass off cos i stupidly wore shorts, BUT it was still pretty fun and awsome yr12 memories :), so yes for those who didn't come, you still suck =D Took heaps of photos hehe.

And yer my bro came back woo. At first he said i looked shorter but slimmer and i was like rllyrlly whoohooo but then he looked at me agian and hes like "oh are they shorts, i thot it was a skirt, ok now you look fat" LOL TT thanks but I was pretty sure i hadn't lost weight anyway, more like gained. I discovered the main contributer to the reason why im a fetty is because "my eyes are bigger than my belly". I always serve out more than I can eat but then I have to eat it cause I'm not allowed to waste food lols.

Mitchell bought be grey contacts woo. But i tried the right one and it felt weird, maybe cos i had makeup on b4 and like there was liquid in the cup of the contact. So my eye went red and i gave up for now. But, my friend said that there was diff size contacts and maybe its the wrong shapre for my eye. WTF noooo don't say such things i paid $40 for these >=0. Anybody know if theres any truth to this, pls say no? haha i think i have rlly big eyeballs, shiet. Also got nail art stuff from etude hehe and free samples BUT my bro didn't get the stencil TT that noob lol but i shall be thankful and not mention it to him. Guess I'll have to order online. He go mum this rlly cool lamp which looks like a flower and dad this jap wooden bowls and spoons set.

Ok my face looks massive here lols. At Bigecho k in city. Darren, Nathan, Trevor, Erica.

Fiona with her gift from the Carlos. Mac gel pot liner, eye liner brush and mascara. @ Norita

The solar moving toy thing Noori bought me in Korea ^^

A customer gave my mum this choc package and this came with it. Haha a choc mobile phone 8)

LOL bernii sleeping in english with her half shut eye lids, I never know if she's asleep or awake haha

I'll load photos of gifts from Korea later, cause right now my mum would be like wtf are you doing haha. Anyways study time TT

dedication

LOL this is a blog by request so just ignore it guys :)

You are my beloved retard. Your Bday's coming up soon, yeah I'm a daym good friend. I shall hopefully get time to write you a really nice letter in my morning glory letter set and perhaps a gift too =) but theres only so much you can post. The letter is enough yeh? haha. I would go to your party but yeh dunno, get back to you on that. We haven't seen each other for so long :( its quite depressing, the failed outing which I was kinda glad failed when I woke cause I was so daym tired and cbf haha but I still miss you and wanna see your ugly face x) OH and because of you I'm like the only kid alive who hasn't seen avatar >=0, did you see it without me? I don't have time for movies, and now that free ticket is being used by my rents as we speak, thanks alot! haha jks. Even though we hardly see each other, the relationship just maintains itself because you're awsome haha. OK I seriously dunno what else to say and I need shit to write in that letter, so I'll shutup now :). Getting P's soon so maybe we'll go for a drive OR wooo lets look forward to next year when I can see you whenever =).
Umm the bad stuff about you (lol): get a haircut, geniusness (i have a love/hate relationship with that feature of your personality :]), obvlious to your affect on people, so bad at reading people haha
BUT the good: you are happy to be yourself no matter what, you're never self-conscious unlike me, you always make me feel comfortable because you're more retarded than me hehe :) and yes I can talk to you about pretty much anything, but some things can shock you ha
Ok satisfied? good :) nites

random blog

Holly shit guys, my guy friend just showed me this haha I'm not that kinda girl that cares heaps about buffness and gets like turned on by muscles haha I seriously don't care. BUT just holly shiet, musta taken him ages haha

Direction

Feeling: certainty

Farout, you know whilst I'm in bed, doing my little thinking about random shiet thing that i do, I always think of great topics which I like to discuss on my blog, but then i forget to my blog becomes rlly boring and shiet :( sorry guys. Incase you haven't already realised:

1. My memory sucks ass! (no joke)

2. I have insomnia 8) hence why I am always tired (I never stop thinking) And lately there has been so much shit on my mind, I didn't sleep the whole night once.

CAN someone please tell me how to get music player for your own music on your blog? :)

The end of another chapter

It was fun while it lasted. I think i needed a bit of excitement in my life for a brief period. Thanks for flattering me, it made me feel better. But also, you gave me so much drama for nothing, oh well, I don't think I wanted to act on it anyway :). I wasted the past month on the basis of curiousity, stupid girl. But in the end I think it was a good chapter, a useful chapter, allowed me to see things alot more clearly. Yeh guys, boys are a waste of time, unless your super sure :).

HSC depression kicks in

I spent all of tues night studying for my test on financials and binomials. On wed the lesson began with a quick revision quiz. I couldn't remember anything, complete BLANK. So that totally through me off and my tutor said I looked extremely nervous -_-. Exam begins and I cannot remember how to even begin the question or which method/formula so use. 30mins left and I haven't answered any financial questions. I hate problem solving, I suck at interpreting the questions. My tutor smiles at me and I feel like I'm storming out and crying. Exam ends, the other smart girls expect to get 75%. I'll be lucky to get 5%. My tutor says he's sure I did fine and points out how down I look. I almost cried as I walked through strath plaza. I tell my Mum and she says "well you'll need financials for business so you better get better!" majorly pissed me off, so when she casually asked me about school I told her "don't talk to me" hehehe. Apologies in advance Min for failing :(. You shall either think I didn't study ( but i did! :( I just suck ) or suggest I need help with everything. Def NOT looking forward to wed =/.

So yeh after that I just started thinking about the HSC, and the direction I'm going in atm. Not happy with it guys. And that test just made me feel like I was so useless and even if I do study, I still do shit. I realised I have never been satisfied with myself, although I'm my biggest critic, I definately can work harder. I know I say this whilst blogging, haha but I really want to try now, I just hope I can do it. Theres nothing i despise more than studying, those who enjoy it, WTF! haha :)

This is why I love you guys
So whilst in my depressive state, a few friend's were worried and asked if I was ok. Tried to motivate me. Thanks to viv, lisa and fi for taking me out. Not a great start to the whole "study" thing but I think I really needed that release.

Notes to myself:

1. email indo cp.35

2. give bernii history notes

3. finish in the skin of a lion

4. study maths both school and discovery -_-

5. legal notes

6. biz hwk

This is some crazy ass spider I saw at like midnight when i was watering the garden

And this is the massive web (duno if you can see) but it went from my my Mum's office to the house which is like roughly 6m apart, fkn giant leap for spider x), I still don't get how he did it.

Random chatswood day a couple week's ago :) Rens came makeup shopping hehe (Y)

See angus, I'm slightly nice :) I only loaded it on my blog hehe
Awsome english class !

I think I'll continue to do a weekly blog, unless I get a sudden urge to express myself, that's if i have the time :(. Eunice you're insane, a blog a day, I don't understand how you can be bothered haha I'm just like ahhh cbf :). Anyways hope you're all well and I didn't bore you :]

Selamat malam.

feeling: extremely confused but cbf to do anything about it =D, give up

Man i seriously suck at this blog thing haha I think I'm better at just reading them :) BUT I'll blog finally cause I'm bored.

I can't even remember what happened this week. Friday was open high and yes (elizabeth) we did HEAPS hehe, indo lunch at the Java (Y) then i had work but I was soo tired i literally fell asleep on the train, thankgod angus was there to wake me :). Saturday bernii and I were mega bored which = lameness and made a sign for our baddy coach, ngaww but hes not taking us. Got moved up to the higher class and got a massive workout TT my abs and legs and ass are gonna ache for sure 2moro. Shooted off to tutoring at stra, and now everyone thinks Im mega sporty HA funny. Then tonight went to korean bbq at carlo court, the one on the corner. Its sooo worth it, better than stra :). Self serve wooo ALL YOU CAN EAT =D but unfortunatley i kinda ate my lunch at 6pm so I wasted my $30 on like a few pieces of meat and fruit haha oh well.

I hate that stage in relationships when you're not really sure if you like each other and you're always wondering what the others thinking but not comfortable enough with each other yet so just say whatever cause you wanna impress the other. Yeh that sucks. Haven't been through that since yr7, would really like to skip that stage.

final thoughts: I seriously don't care anymore, whatever will be shall be. Please just be honest with me and say whats on your mind :)

Hope to blog soon! :) xx

I have finally decided to actually use this thing after like what a week since i created it haha :) sorry bernii. Friday was awsome :) i still have a few photos but cbb to upload atm haha later, keep your eyes out on fb. I'm really glad that everythings sorted now and yes we can all move on happily :). Next thing to organise is formal, hmmmm any volunteers? haha shotty not. I just watched the most scary retarded movie ever "Hide and Seek" its got dakota fanning in it hm. I was so tired on friday farout, you lucky bastards that got to jig, i had legal with lundberg= no jigging. SO HOT and then i slept for like 15mins when i got home before i had to go to work TT was dying at work but when i got home i stupidly went on the computer after the "electircal storm" and became pretty awake. So saturday ended up being sucha waste, by the time i woke up and ate breaky i had to get ready for badminton. Man we had to do this massive abs workout today, i srsly need to build my muscle i have like none haha. I beat fiona in my game woot :). Went ewood for dinner, sakae i swear the waitress like knows me now haha, and they had that delicious salad they give you for free omgsh i wish i knew how to make it, its soooo daym nice. Had taikyaki too hmmmm delicious. I treked it back home in the rain unfortunately and i was wearing thongs cos i have blisters on my ankles from my stupidity of wearing heels on fri, hence my feet became disgutsingly dirty and wet :(
Anyways all up its been an eventful week with its ups and downs. But thankfully it has ended on a high :) Love you all :D

uhoh I finally gave in and joined blogspot

Today i learned: that i am sucha noob when it comes to computers =D

Took me prob 20mins to set this thing up and then workout how to post haha :) good stuff.
If anyone finds this, well sorry if I bore you. I just decided to create this out of boredom and for useful purposes (reminders) but if you do read it feel free to comment or watevs. Anyway back to making this alot prettier than it is now :)