beauty in the breakdown

currently: blogging (obviously) before i continue with my legal research
wants to: be good at studying and writing almost perfect essays in the first attempt

Baby let me love you downnn
There’s so many ways to love ya
Baby I can break you down
There’s so many ways to love ya
Got me like, oh my gosh I’m soo in love
I found you finallyy, you make me want to say
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
Ohh myy gosh

This week has been strange.
Monday
Indo exam. Listening did not go well, it never does and I cannot see how I am going to get better. Watching indo news on sbs as my teacher suggested seriously does not help hmpf. And for speaking i had so many great ideas but i just get so nervous and my brain gets fried TT. Rank is def going to drop, but no I must be positive! and know that I can get it back.
I received an email from my teacher reminded me how course work counts ergh and I'm behind 2 weeks haha and interviews are coming up! crap.

Tuesday
Business exam. Then to maccau with fi,yat and viv. I walked in on some old chinky lady peeing...learn to shut the door! And then I did discovery homework for the rest of the arvo and still failed to complete it. I didn't understand a question and I started getting really down.

Wednesday
Tutoring, luckily my tutor didn't rage at me or I would feel like even more of a failure, I think he realises I'm fragile haha. So I now have 6 booklets to complete plus the rest by wednesday, GREAT! But my tutor just lectured us about positive attitude does help etc, he always gives us motivational speeches lols, his kid is def gonna be one smart cookie

Thursday
Got business results. Ergh don't ask. I am now very embarassed but oh well. When I got home, I didn't want to tell my Mum because I just find it really hard to talk to her about these things. But she was very understanding, and got a bit upset herself haha I think cause I didn't tell her. Big chat about the HSC, I feel better now. She wants to help me, but she can't, its upto me. But she bought me a solar moving toy thing, a prettier one than nooris xD ha to cheer me up.

Friday
Mr Hanna wanted to have a chat with me, ergh reenforcing the embarassment factor, but it was good. I did legal research in my frees :) got alot done, plan to sit alone during frees now ha sorry guys! Work was the usual, oh but i tried a KFC corneto crusher, yumyum.

Saturday
That jess watson girl is returning, you know, the sailing girl. Lol my parents have nothing better to do so they went to go watch. Now for me to get on with this legal essay. I must finish it by Sunday!

Toodles

listening to: I'm not ok - The Dream
Currently: tea and indo = bad combination, minus the tea

Unfortunately I think this will be my final blog for a while :(. Hopefully I'll keep it up though, since i plan to get off fb and no msn except on saturday nights for a couple hrs HA. I did it for a week last term, felt good so here goes attempt number 2.

I got paid $30 p/h for easter hoidays hehe got payslip today. 2 people told me I was an awsome packer, for those non woolies people you're prob like wtf, who cares but when your frigin packing all day, that really motivates you >=]. OHHH I found out btw (A block asians) lol that woolies calls the green fruit papaya and the yellow one pawpaw so there you go sugna.

I keep putting my indo off fuck, and all my other work. I'm like leaving everything til the last minute, gotta get rid of this attitude. Always thinking its ok, I still have time, just get it done erica! So last day of holis shall consist of powerwalking and breaky at a cafe yay then shopping for noori's bday present then STUDY! indeed.

Tonights ep of underbelly sucked :(, but next one looks good. I can't wait until after hsc, so much drama and shows to catch up on hehehe. And reading! I am yet to read breaking dawn, lol got to the last book and was lyk cbf, next thing I knew I was in yr12.

Anyway, hope everyones pumped for school! ha not. But I get to see you all :)
Until next time, which will hopefully be sooner than later, stay happy!

I’ve seen what you’re facing, please don’t be alarmed
If you need me, just call me
You’re never alone
I’m barely sleeping, im barely eating
Until the rain turns into change
My heart’s your heart, my love is your love
And im not ok, unless you’re ok
And my mind is your mind, and my soul is your soul
And I’m not ok unless you’re ok

release me

Currently: mathing, reading berni's blog

listening to: "Officially missing you" by Janice and Sonya <-- listen to it if you haven't already :). Poor Tamia, compared to them, you suck :) ha.


So I kind of got sick of blogging, which i knew would happen but today I am in a blogging mood hm. Don't care if no one reads this, I shall chat to myself :).



Holiday recap:

Hols have been good but gone way too fast. Can't believe only 4 days left crap and I still have so much to do TT. I just been shopping, eating out and working. WOO made $300 on easter monday hehe hopefully that'll cover my expenses for this hols. Bernii take me with you to the markets one day x) seems cool. I started running again yay, 4km yesterday but 0 today :( I need a running buddy to motivate me, bernii I'm looking at you, in a years time :) haha. Been going mac uni library (Y). I love going late at night when its so dead, but soon it will be invaded with school kids =='. Might start going every monday this term.



I got tutoring all this week TT how lame. Going library tonight and saturday. If you're cool and wanna work hard, find me but only if you wanna work :)

OHOH i tried chatime! hehe i love it! I am now a dedicated chatime fan =). Hey bernii, did you know we get 10% off because we work at macq? hehe. Just tell them where you work. They didn't even ask me for proof like wtf, not that I have any besides staff parking card, which is a total rip off btw! $20 just for the card then i gotta pay $4 eveytime I park, but they failed to mention that before i handed over the $20, stingy bastards.

Hope you're all enjoying your holis while they last. See you all soon.

I don't care. I don't care. I don't care, fuck you.

You're stupid. Just because I say I don't care, doesn't mean I don't. I'm a woman, its obvious. Women rarely actually "don't care" when they say they don't. All men have to do is figure out when we do and don't mean it. A simple task you would think, but clearly not. Idiot. Right now I want to punch your face in. Boxing is really good exercise but it'd get really boring unless you had something to motivate you. If I imagined your face right now, I think i could go for at least a good solid hour.

yaaaaaay happiest day of my life? perhaps this year haha

I got my P's guys, for those not on facebook hehehe I was so insanely nervous but then became so insanely happy hehe, now i can get some well needed sleep!

AFTER i complete my draft for english :)

Thanks for your supprt guys haha i think you helped calm me with your well wishes x)

nervous

HEY GUYS! long time no blog.

I've been extremely busy lately with assessments and the cbf to blog attitude also :) ha. Eunice, get blogging.....NOW! Still got maths, eng, maths, legal to go. I really don't think I did well for business, rank is gone :(. Mr Ramsay thinks so highly of me ahha weird, he was like "thats so unlike you Erica to not study enough" I'm like ergh are you sure you have the right erica? ha.

Today i went macq uni. Was productive at the start but then i got stuck on a maths question TT and couldnt go on until noori came. I hate it cause i dunno how much space to leave. Not as bad as elle tho, if she gets stuck on one question, she doesn't go on hahahaha nice! So later Lisa and Paulo came, we managed to get a room later. Cecilia, ray, camie and viv also came. Cecilia is really pretty now haha not that she wasn't b4 ;) but yes hair makes such a difference. I think everyone gets hotter when they graduate, heres hoping. How far is everyone with english? I'm hoping i can do a 3hr sitting and get it pretty much done with editing later etc.

I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Insomnia definately kicked in last night, i spent the night thinking about cross sections and various road rules haha. If you guys read this blog tonight then oh shiet. Please do not tell people about my driving test haha because it'll make me really nervous. I'm nervous enough! ha but yeh its 2moro, and my parking keeps screwing up >_>

Anyways I better frigin write my thesis, read my road rules and get to bed :) nites all

Ps. This made me LOL at the time, dw if you don't find it funny, its for my own personal enjoyment haha
erica: wait, why are we arguing?! haha always happens. Dw I like our stupid arguements :)
paul: lol..its not really arguing. And mostly because you're stupid.
erica: lol "and mostly because you're stupid" >_> nice, thanks paul

lol indeed i told you not to read it and indeed eunice you're brother is a bitch

high school dropout

1. I have no idea how anyone studies for an entire day. I think I should break up my study, instead of one full day of play and one full day of study, half play half study per day. But that rarely happens, outtings take entire days.

2. Check out my obese foot guys haha

Yeh for some weird reason i felt the need to take 4 phots of my FAT foot. Just so you can realise how fatty it is ha. But yeh didn't end up going doctors, still considering it but i think its fine. Coach full insisted i go get it checked out but im frigin walking lols, unfortunately.

3. My failed plat. Eunice says unlayered hair is nicer, do you agree? I was planning to grow it really long then get crazy layers hehe but now she has made me rethink this theory :(. I miss being able to plat my hair. Might trim the fringe to make it grow faster, so close to being put behind my ear~chyeah

4. I should be studying indo. Learning vocab is possible the most boring thing alive.

5. Farewell :)

owe

Friday
I tried to argue with Mr Hana about business exam, cause we only got 1 week offical notice
=( and its not like i keep track of what week it is gosh. But he's like no you knew it was in week 6 or watevs week it is. I forgot to ask the other class if they knew, dammit. But I'll just try my best, thats all i can do, I just wanna beat joel haha and show him once again, CRAMMING WORKS!~ :)
After school my dad picked me up and i drove home. Had my 2 shots of coffee before work (I'm becoming addicted to coffee, not cool). I haven't slept before 12 for the past week, totally not helping my insomnia. Work was actually really fun for once :) maybe its because i wanted to get my mind off things and the coffee hyped me up. I love 3hr shifts, go by so fast :). It was my parents aniversary on friday too so they went out to dinner, without me :( haha. Studied a bit then phoned with nooripoori.

Saturday
Tried to wake up early to study english and failed as usual. Went to the RTA to practice my park and stopping at the line~ test soon =0 pleaseplease let me pass! I'm telling you now guys, my car only stops at eastwood x) ha. English tutor was okish but i was so tired and not really paying attention hehe. Driving yet again, man I have to learn to drive like a grandma, 25km is so slow TT haha.

Badminton was awsome as usual, always funtimes at baddy. BUT i rolled my ankle guys, farout ha. We were doing laps up and down the courts and somehow when i turned i lost my balance and rolled, but luckily i was smart and fell with it. Bernii was like "haha are you alright" then i burst out crying LOL and she was like "shiet, TAM!". I think it was just the initial shock, I was scared I'd broken it cause i dunno what it feels like when u break a bone. But luckily there was a doctor there and he said it looks not too bad. So i had to hop all the way out to the car, biggest workout for my left leg haha. Thankyou bernii and fiona you guys are such good friends =). So I full got to make my mum get things for me haha then I was like lets try walking, and guess what?! after my 2hrs of not walking it was fine haha. But iuno, its starting to swell so gonna go doctor 2moro.

Yeh I'll update the state of the ankle 2moro but i think its fine. My mood is all over the place these days angry, sad, bored, careless, happy ALL at once. So lets turn that negative energy into positive by using it to study =) ha indo monday then biz tuesday, screwed!